new semester, new troubles

i'm not required to do this anymore but my professor said it was a good idea to keep this up because it counts as real writing experience and thats pretty cool i suppose so why not keep jotting my thoughts down when im bored. Which is sad to say that im bored on a saturday night but my friends are either watching hockey or playing basketball and seeing as i really just do not like sports, im here attempting to write an essay thats due tomorrow and inevitably getting distracted by the internet and staring at my fish. Story of my life. Another story of my life that is unraveling is the fact that i have a super busy and hard semester ahead of me. Between classes, work, scuba diving, homework, friends, and family i feel like this semester is going to push me to my limits. It'll be fun, no doubt but very very hard. In that way, weekends are a blessing and really i dont mind sitting on my computer in my room by myself at 9 o clock on a saturday because sitting is just something i dont do during the week anymore. However, busy is somewhat good as well, busy keeps my mind off of missing josh and missing josh has been taking over my life recently. Maybe it was just the first and second week and things will get better from here but something tells me i'm always gonna miss the little bugger. How could i not? Our anniversary is on the 13th i love the date of our anniversary. We're hipsters by having it on that day and i feel so special because its not on the 14th. If we get married i want it to be on the 13th, i bet no one gets married on that day because everyone would really want to get married on valentines day instead but that super cliche and besides im pretty sure st. valentine murdered a bunch of people or something so i dont really know ow that turned into a lovey dovey holiday when you think it would be the opposite. No one likes valentines day anyway, they all say its just created by the candy companies.. like halloween but halloween was actually a real holiday, kind of. Anyway so thats josh and missing him sucks and i dont know how im going to successfully miss him for four years and keep our relationship going.. maybe by missing him? I guess only time will tell. Another one of my problems though, is kayla. I dont think i've ever mentioned her before but shes my roommate and sometimes she drives me absolutely crazy. Let's take last night for example, she came home drunk (not surprising) and just totally went off on how she never tells me anything about anything about her because i run off and tell everyone else. This would be a legitimate concern when telling someone something about yourself and i would totally understand her reaction IF SHE ACTUALLY TOLD ME SOMETHING ABOUT HER THAT I COULD TELL EVERYONE ELSE. Seeing as she doesn't ever, not even in the first place, i dont see how this quirk of mine is possible. If anything its Amy that tells everyone everything about kayla, cause kayla tells her, amy doesn't do it on purpose though, dont get me wrong i love amy, shes just kind of an airhead sometimes. but of course i get blamed for these things because i always get blamed for these things. This actually hasn't happened in a while though, when i had my old bestfriend becca this used to happen all the time, everything was always my fault no matter what happened or how much at fault she was too. However i put this all in my past and i am attempting to move on with my life. Not that i can do that effectively when i have a bitchy roommate that just does the same thing. This is why i hang out with men i seriously tried the girl thing at college but its just turning out to not work again, girls are bitches end of story. Ha so i guess this just turned into a giant rant and its not really made me feel any better. But ah well life is full of troubles and life is full of good times too. I'll just have to work a little harder to grasp onto the brighter side of life and hang on for dear life when i finally grab hold of it.